A Warriors Call

We were awake at 3am. Plan was to get to the Nashville airport by 7:30 to make a flight to Palm Beach , a little work and a little beach time. I could feel Lola's feet on my back in the night and knew she was hot, another fever, another cold. Laying awake in bed before sunrise I went through the possibilities of what we might do rearranging our June schedule to fit it all in. No worries, all the choices were great so what does the order matter.

Being a Dad is my closest connection to God. I can't imagine loving more than I love these little girls...all my girls, from 26 to 2. Lola, Bella, Ana , Alexis and now two granddaughters, Sydney and Avery.Unconditional love is always with me just under the surface of my relationship to the world I live in outside of me.

Feeling Lola's feet didn't make for an Oh No , We can't go reaction...in fact I just felt how much I love having this little character for a daughter and her Mom for my wife.

My main reason in flying to Palm Beach was to see a man I respect and feel a connection to cuse we have both done our best to create a doorway for those trying to undo their addictions and suffering for the sake of living a life they love. Call it recovery if you want..I'm not sure that word is accurate..doesn't really matter, it is the evolution of our human legacy and Don Mullaney and I have very different looking approaches to our work while both work from that place within us that is so grateful for our life and transformation that we had to share that gratitude the best way we know how. Really very simple and sometimes very challenging when you can't settle for less than what you feel is the best for your people, the ones we serve in our work.

From the outside we don't appear to have much at all in common but I would bet you through the eyes of God we look like two brothers who have their own style and way of getting the job done.One thing I have come to see and know about the truth of life, looks don't have anything to do with substance and real truth brings great respect and honor with it. Among warriors there is always a mutual respect that will come forward at some point, whether in victory or defeat, in argument or agreement, true warriors live for the closeness to life's integrity, a closeness that being the warrior brings.Going with the flow is usually just an annoyance to a warrior. We do it to get in position to act sometimes but I don't think we ever like it.

Being a warrior is sure not a popularity contest either. Popularity is another one of those social conventions that seems to breed soft, lazy actors rather than solid courageous Characters, warriors. I've become such a jackass these days that I almost don't trust anybody who is too popular in any field, recovery,politics, film, music, doesn't matter, authenticity brings uniqueness and social compliance as a culture has a hard time with unique.It also has a hard time with the truth.

When I realized we couldn't make the flight this morning I came down stairs and got online cancelling the flight and re-booking the Singer Island Hilton for the end of June. I'm going to see Don Mullaney, the exact day is not the point.

Many times in my life I have had powerful feelings that I needed to do something and wouldn't "understand " why..today I know that is God directing me and I don't need to understand why. Actually it's more fun not knowing, I get to figure it out as I move forward, with faith, rather than believing a head full of bullshit thinking I know something.

Palm Beach will be there and I'll play on that sugar white sand beach with my girls and visit my warrior compadre...sometimes we need to check in with each other because we are here to learn and share who we are with each other as individuals not as business people or friends or any other roles we have given so much value to. We need to check in Man to man, human to human..life to life.

Today I'm going to The Ranch and work with some wild two year old colts of ours...Now that's a mirror of Spirit for you, a two year old colt all fat and wide eyed.

To all the warriors out there I salute you and look forward to meeting you along the way...we do recognize each other and there aren't that many of us in circulation these days. To death I say "I see you and when the time comes we'll dance and sing an old Sweatlodge song to the Great Mystery" Weyah hey hey Weyah Hey......

Do We Create Our Own Experiences?

The following story sparked an interesting email conversation between myself and Brother Bruce...

Father confesses to abuse in Austrian incest case:

by Philippe Schwab

Mon Apr 28, 12:51 PM ET An elderly Austrian confessed Monday to imprisoning his daughter in a windowless cellar for 24 years and fathering her seven children, prosecutors said.

Josef Fritzl, 73, "admitted building the dungeon and to holding his daughter and three children there," prosecution spokesman Gerhard Sedlacek told AFP.

Fritzl admitted incest "but insisted there was no force involved," said Sedlacek.
One of the children died shortly after birth. "He disposed of it in the furnace of his building," chief investigator Franz Polzer told a press conference in the eastern town of Amstetten, about 100 kilometers (60 miles) west of Vienna, where the family lived.

Fritzl was to be brought before an investigating magistrate on Monday and faces several more days of questioning over the case which has shocked Austria.

His daughter Elisabeth, now 42, has alleged she was drugged by her father in August 1984 and had been his prisoner ever since, giving birth to seven children in the "dungeon".

The six surviving children are three boys and three girls aged between five and 19.

The case came to light after the eldest of the six children, Kerstin, was admitted to hospital on April 19 with serious health problems. Doctors looking for background information stepped up efforts to find the mother and the whole horrific story came to light when Fritzl allowed them to establish contact with his daughter.

Elisabeth Fritzl and three of her children, who had until now never seen sunlight, were kept in three cramped underground rooms in the family house.

Photographs of the rooms, measuring "50-60 square metres in all," with a ceiling just 1.70 metres (5.5 feet) high, according to Sedlacek, were released by police. They showed a well-furnished living area, with sink, shower, a small kitchen area and two small bedrooms.

The cellar was hidden behind a reinforced concrete door which could only be opened with a numbered code. There were no windows and the prisoners' only contact with the outside world were a radio, television and VCR.

This ironically helped Elisabeth Fritzl escape, after she saw the hospital's appeal on television for more background information on Kerstin and persuaded her father to let her out, Polzer said.

Kerstin was "critical but stable," doctors at the hospital where she was being treated, said, without giving more details.

Franz Pucher from the Lower Austrian police told journalists: "This case is unique in this country's criminal history."
Polzer said however there was "a wide range of questions that still need answering" such as how Fritzl supplied the woman and children with food, how the babies were born and cared for in such cramped conditions, and how he could have incarcerated his victims for so long without his wife knowing.

Fritzl legally adopted three of the children -- two boys and one girl -- when they were still babies. He is said to have told his his wife Rosemarie, 69, -- with whom he had seven children -- and local authorities that his daughter had left the babies on the doorstep.

Each delivery was accompanied by a letter purportedly signed by her saying she could not support the child because she already had others to care for.

Elisabeth Fritzl also told investigators her mother knew nothing about the sexual abuse she had endured since the age of 11, some seven years before she was locked away.

The trio went to school as normal, seemingly unaware that their mother and three other siblings were trapped underground.

Neither neighbours nor social services appear to have had any inkling, either.

It is the latest in a series of horror abuse cases to have stunned Austrians, with the Oesterreich tabloid calling it "the worst crime of all time," and the Kronen-Zeitung portraying Fritzl as a "monster, a brutal tyrant."

DNA tests are being carried out to confirm if he is the father of the six surviving children.

Austria's most notable sequestration case was that of Natascha Kampusch, who was kidnapped on her way to school in 1998, and held captive for over eight years in the basement of a house near Vienna before escaping two years ago.

Three young girls near Linz, in northern Austria, were also locked up for seven years by their mentally ill mother.

Brother Bruce Writes:

I was wondering who was dreaming the experience in the following story? Do believe that the daughter created her life to be used and abused? I am curious as to what your take is...

Thanks in advance

Love and Light

Brother Bruce

I responded:

Ok We humans are dreaming, living out our imaginings as projections based on distorted, insane beliefs, fears, and simple insanity and from this place within our minds we act out all the stuff that we call "real" in this world. You know that place within you that is the presence and peace of God and we also all have that place within us that we have the free will to "dream " our reality from. Being born into this world is being born into a legacy which you inherit like it or not . That legacy is what we pass on from generation to generation with or without awareness. To wake up to how and what we are creating [dreaming} with our life is the first step in taking responcibility for our personal creation and evolving our "personal" legacy from what we inherit to what we are in truth as the children of God. Free will is a huge factor here. Why we come into this world in our particular situations is beyond me t o know. What I believe is that we all have the ability to bring more love, truth and light into our personal lives when we have the opportunity to awaken to the power within us and that is the evolution of humanity ,slow but sure. The toltecs percieved the reality of the asleep humans as hell and this story is evidence that hell is right here now not some place we are sent. We.humanity, created this mess and we will create our way beyond this mess when and if we should decide to do so. Free will......Thanks for staying connected...Love, Lee

Bruce responds with:

Yes... I agree with most everything you have written. Based on what you said, Now I must ask you, do you believe Why we come into this world in our particular situations being beyond your level of awareness would lead me to believe that you would agree that there is a greater level of consciousness that is superior to that which most of us are aware of that directs and orchestrates the circumstances within what some call Creation. Orchestrating to me does not mean controlling but simple responding to what we call for. As you said, free-will is not only essential but the most sacred gift we have been given. If you are interested in discussing deeper levels of understanding, such as the difference between linear time and that which exists beyond the boundaries of time and space I would be happy to hear your thoughts and explore where most never go. P.S. Sharing understanding is what I have come into this world to do. There is nothing that I feel is more important.

Love and Light

BB

I write back yet again:

This is great. I live with this amazing feeling that becomes my experience when I'm responding to questions like this. "I don't know", is the truth most of the time when we get outside what's familiar and that answer works because the truth is not in the words but rather in the experience of putting our attention on the question and then feeling with the answer, not reducing the answer to words. We are here to bring the experience of Love into as many forms as we might imagine... we seem to be stuck on imagining other shit tho..........that leaves a lot of room for doing cool things...where were you in 69'.......