Doing my Best, Living my life, listening to Those spirit people and taking my Time

It was an odd idea at first, doing your best being good enough and in fact your best being all you can do, your best, whatever that is. I lived with the words and idea for some time and at some point it sunk in. I am living doing my best and enjoying the doing it more than ever. Time flys when your living over 40 and man time has been flying lately. Soon my wife and two little girls and myself will pack it up move most of the things in our Nashville home out to the Ranch house and take the rest back to Malibu where we are setting up a home again. This time our setting up a home came so easy that I had to say yes to those Spirit People that for me lead my way into and out of the choices I make with life. I deal with other people in my living and creating a life and those people are there as a part of the Spirit peoples direction not just cuse I may like them. Some time back I had a conversation of sorts with the Head of the Spirit People clan and said I was open to whatever I could do to make the most out of being me, here, these days and would do my best to go for where they would point me. I totally love the being the Human in the mix, kind of comes with a get out of jail free card of sorts. Humans are so odd, we are so scattered and freaked out, funny and passionate. It's all in our Human dreaming, this world we have made up for ourselves here on Earth, not exactly as it is in Heaven. So I have to pack up again, books, clothes, surfboards-funny I have had 5 surfboards in my garage in Nashville for two and a half years now I'm taking them back to Malibu and man I am so ready to get them all wet again. I have a company, I say company because these objects all have connections to other places in time and other energies and spirits, of Sacred objects,a company of sacred objects sacred to me. Old pieces from Teotihuacan and Peru, from the Dine people and my brother Albert Sombrero in Tucson. I have things from the Ranch that hold ties to places deep inside me that I like having connections to that I can hold in my hand. Power objects, Old statues of Saints and Jesus, Buddha and San Martin, Mt. Shasta and Cusco. They are all Spirit people places and aspects of the true reality beyond time and space. This time I have a compelling drive to create something that the Mother told me would come when I was standing in front of the Tilma in Mexico City talking or ,rather listening, to her a few months ago. Every time I feel her voice inside me my heart explodes and I am so filled with Love and gratitude for all this life, for her being in the center of our family ,for the grace that lives from inside of us out into this world . It is really a huge feeling and one I have to get some action going for, the feeling drives me. I have to do what she instils in me, there is no choice. To say no would be like saying no to the one great Love of your life, the Heart of all you've ever loved and held special all moving through you at once and in the midst of that experience you would say no...I don't think so..it's not even a real option...you want to melt into the light yes yes yes, lets do it. That's my thing,,lets do it,,come on, now!

So we are moving back to the Point Dume, I love that Point. The West coast whale shrine of Southern California and we get to live there. That is so cool, I can walk out to the top of Point Dume with my little girls and my Mee and we can sing to the Whales, watching them travel the coast as they have done for all time.

We will build a great open connected community in Malibu and L.A. and all across this land because that connection of community is what we Humans are looking for in this disconnected world of ours. There has never been any disconnection in the spirit world. The spirit world is holding the light for us to remember who and what we are so we might step back into awareness and community as Human Beings together again. This is a big step and the only one that will save us from Our self indulgent ways and it's happening. It is happening on all kinds of levels, in all kinds of ways, and more and more opportunities keep coming to us all the time. All,l, we need do is do our best, take time to listen to those spirit people that talk in all languages and need no words. Living life is the answer and being honest and courageous is the medicine and we have that already deep within each of us. So lets do it,,,and we will see you somewhere along the way.....

LEAVING MEXICO AGAIN

Leaving Mexico again. Listening to Elton John’s “Ballad of a Well known Gun”. Next stop L.A. and the Topanga Film Festival where we will screen Dreaming Heaven the movie. Five years ago we filmed the journey of 18 people for 5 days of living in the body of a timeless light machine. This last ten days back in Mexico has brought me back to the place within myself that realizes Life is happening on so many levels all at once and by default we seem to succumb to whatever our dominate life frequency is and as we become more enmeshed in that frequency we lose relationship with other parallel frequencies. Time and attention following the last calling till we are living a very small way of being, Mexico has a way of blowing that open for me.

I was told some things on this journey, told by the voices that speak inside me, that we live in a Kingdom of light in this world, a kingdom that has by our creation of form and attachment come to cast great shadows across the landscape of Light. Our creation has become the main focus of our attention and the main focus of our faith and beliefs. We have fallen into indulgence with the world of form losing our awareness of being beings of this kingdom of Light. Like a singer who loses them self to the presence of their own voice. Indulgence comes at a big price when you have the ability and opportunity to live open to as many frequencies of Light as you might integrate into your awareness. There is no “guilt” to this situation only cause and effect, it is what it is and clearly it’s time we realize we are living such a small reality that we will collapse as a species if we don’t expand into a greater relationship with our kingdom of light. How that happens I can’t say all I can say is the symptoms of our situation are dire and there’s no way anyone can realistically play dumb here anymore. Of course that doesn’t stop most people from trying and for real I just don’t get it. Could be the humans greatest addiction is suffering in general, even when we transform a life from sickness to wellness many still cling to identities of suffering keeping their life small so as to believe in the lies of safety is a small reality, that is a lie.

Living in a Kingdom of light has a great compelling call to step deeper and deeper into that light. As this way of living opens before us the attachments to the world as an identity or place of refuge and legacy becomes less and less interesting. There is nothing left to prove, no more desire to be good enough for the world. What happens is the passion to live the way of your light into this world of form. Living your ideas and dreams, being a witness to life on Earth all the while your creating the forms of your passion and talents.

I still like the smell of fresh cut hay and street taco stands with a crew of Patriots feeding on the art of the Taco and sipping a cold Pacifico. A good Horse is still as close to God as any religious idol I’ve ever known and swimming in a cool river with your kids on a smoking hot day is Heaven on Earth. A kingdom of Light is a place of mystery and magic when you allow what’s been offered the chance to reveal itself to you. There will be more coming with my Kingdom of Light, a lot more as I sit here right now and that is worth showing up for, one day at a time, heart and mind, body and Spirit open and loving the next turn of the wheel. “You tell me there’s an Angel in your tree, did he say he’d come to call on me”, Elton’s singing “Burn Down the Mission” now. I’ll be looking for the smoke signals.

RAIN AND WIND

This has been a wet spring. The rains keep coming. There have been great powerful tornadoes all over the South and now floods are rising up around the Country. A spring of contrasts and power. For years now we humans have been living further and further away from the real power in this world , the power of Nature, of Life. We live as though all creation is supposed to be at our command. We have gone insane.
In my life I live between different paradigms. One is the beauty, and reality, of the natural world.Being a Cattleman for over 30 years and having grown up on Ranches in Florida and Wyoming I have always known the weather to be as it is and of no fault or blame. Weather rolls it's own way. I respect that after so many years and so many challenges. Droughts and floods, blizzards and fires, I have lived with all of them they come and they go and life goes on.Living with weather as your partner you either realize we are all just a part of the great creation and life flow or you will find yourself demanding that life and weather be something other than what it is, bigger, older and wiser than we humans are.
In the great scheme of things Human profits are irrelevant. Profits have caused so much destruction and death in this world of modern man. We demand profits over life it self, over health over family and friends. That is sick.
In one of my other worlds , the treatment center/recovery world the weather is seen as something to be delt with, either a non issue or a problem, not really seen or respected as the Life force that it is. In the mental health world we humans have tried to find a way to deal with all the issues and challenges that have arisen as a result of our Human disconnection from reality. We live outside of the awareness of the WHOLE of Life.We live outside the awareness of ourselves as WHOLE human beings connected to the WHOLE of Creation. We see ourselves as stories and definitions, compartmentalized and believe our stories and definitions to be true and real.We have to tell our stories over and over and find others that will support and agree with our stories to keep them alive because they have no life, no real life, of their own. We pass on from generation to generation a wounded nature all wrapped up in those stories and energies that we have attached our selves to through fear and judgement, and we take it all personally. It is interesting to see how through our judgements and projections we have unknowingly created a legacy of suffering and further disconnection.We then teach that legacy to our children so they must then carry the weight of suffering that we have born to them.
Living our self imposed exile from the natural world has come at a huge and painful price.The wind and the rain don't care. The natural world is not a place of personal importance or personal attacks. Tornadoes are not after anyone and droughts don't care if you have to sell cattle or eat less. Life is bigger than our human story of life and Life will continue with us or without us, simple as that. We could learn from this if we would just be willing to see how we perpetuate our own suffering by demanding life be something other than what it is.You can't respect what you choose to ignore.
I live much better with the wind and the rain than I do with the demands of beliefs of the Human world. Looking back I can see why I was so in love with the swamps and woods of Florida that I grew up in. Those woods were real and honest and didn't get angry or petty with their ways . Beliefs were not more important that Life itself. Living on a Ranch when it rains you don't fight it you find something else to do that day.
These are very interesting times but if you don't at least try to look at whats going on from a bigger point of view you'll never see more than your own opinions and attachments of how it "should" be reflected back at you. The natural world has the answers we say we are looking for but they may not be the answers we are demanding. So what do you do? Try taking a long walk in the rain and wind and listen to what the wisdom of creation might have for you, it sure works for me.

Thinking Out Loud

Looking at the world and especially the world as portrayed by the USA way, it seems as individuals when we are sick, twisted and lost, addicted or whatever we always make our problems about something or someone else, always focusing outside our self. To change our reality we must bring our energy, attention and focus back to our self and all the aspects that make up our self and our reality. If not, the crazy just keeps getting weirder and more destructive. When you begin your healing journey you must let go of old patterns to have enough energy to even begin to change your life, your patterns. Something has to go, shift, break open.
As a Culture/Country the USA is and has been trying to break open, shift,wake up, while the existing systems keep demanding everything is going to be fine, just like always, except always has not been fine for a long time. We are not in anyway a sustainable Culture or species for that matter. Not at the current rate of reality.So we watch ignorant crap on TV, take 80% of all the drugs on the planet, eat garbage for food,succumb to all kinds of insane fundamentalist agendas, get fatter everyday and hold the belief that We the People are something special in this world. If we are it is only by our Human potential not by our actions or the proof of our choices from day to day.The USA is responsible for the deaths of hundreds of thousands of people in this world over the last 50 years and we are still doing that in the name of a story about Democracy or freedom that does not exist and has no redeeming value anywhere. Not when it has to be perpetrated by Wars.
Back home we have choices, should we continue to destroy the environment as we demand cheap gas and 5$ a gallon gas is cheap. Trade off, you get cancers from all the toxicity of the perpetuation of current petro exploration and drilling, that is happening already all over the USA. Your drinking water is poison, so you must buy water from the same corporations that poisoned it for you so you could have 4$ gas. On and On and on..Short sighted dosen't even begin to cover our lack of seeing!!
We don't have any answers cuse we won't even really acknowledge we are up the creek and can't even remember having had a paddle. First thing I learned from being out of control is I had to stop...be still and find a way to begin to realize the depth of my problems, that would be a great starting point for We The People..stop and take an inventory of our Sick reality.

Learning Opens Doors

Learning and the sparks that learning ignite have brought me to a beautiful place.

Every time I get bored or stuck, dis-interested in whats happening around me,or lazy in my life I can always bet I have not been in a place of learning from Life. I'm not talking about so much left brain information type learning. I am talking about learning in experience with others who have a greater relationship with the focus of the teaching than I do.
This last weekend I sat ,for the first time in a long time , in a grazing/Cattlemens seminar with 40 other Cattle people and listened to three men who held a much greater perspective on their masteries than I did. The whole time I was inspired, re- awakened to the passion and Love I used to live for the land, cattle, nature and life of being a Ranch person. That passion had faded into the sunset over the years as I got involved in other interests and stopped learning about the natural world of grasses, wild life and Ranching.Attention shifts as life moves forward and we simply re-direct our attention to something else, that's life. Cool thing is once I truly love something that love may fade but is never really lost it's just there in the background should I ever bring my attention back and re-connect with a new awareness or passion, learning something new, opening awareness and interest for that Love again.

That flame comes back to life and I'm excited and inspired again.
This weekend brought me back to the beauty, the alive ,present , now, beauty of these Tennessee hills and pastures. I saw them through new eyes. It took a brilliant Gentleman from South Africa and a group of other participants to bring my attention back to what has been there all along that I just lost the eyes to see but man did it ever work.
People will sometimes say"Well you don't appreciate what you have!", but that's not the actual truth. What is true is that we Humans lose the living energetic connection to that object of focus or subject. Everything in Human Life is a relationship if it is alive. Every aspect of my life is an aspect of relationship. All of my relationships are my choosing whether alive in the moment or fading into the distance my life is a matrix of relationships that I either choose to feed or not. In this world today it's easy to jump from place to place, relationship to relationship losing awareness of whats most important and losing that awareness that for a relationship to be vibrant and exciting we must feed it with attention and new experiences.
Learning together in relationship creates a great merging of energy and passion. My Love for the land and Cattle merged with the reality of the land and Cattle I have here in Tennessee and that relationship came back to life like it was new.It's the same thing in relationship with a person, we have to feed those relationships or they get tired and dull. Time and attention are the ingridients that make great relationships and unless we practice applying time and attention to the relationships we choose in our lives then those relationships won't have much life to them and that will be 100% our responsibility, not that other person or interest.
It's been a great weekend and a very good lesson for me...pay attention to what you do with your interests and if they are getting dull then put those relationships in a space to learn something new together, bring life back to forefront of your choices, feed what you Love and Live well.

WORDS

The first thing I learned when I realized I was insane is I HAVE TO STOP PERPETUATING MY INSANITY..the USA is moving from frenzy to frenzy..believing that something is being accomplished. Until we can collectively stop, stop believing ourselves and our minds rants, our stories and all our greatest versions of how progress will look,,until we stop the frenzy we will only go round in circles, spiraling down deeper into the chaos of our minds,,The Nature of this reality is going to stop us humans if we do not find the inate internal integrity we all have with in us to do this great act of Life for our selves..it has to begin one person at a time,,and spread one person at a time,,grounding the light back into our realities and world..all our external communication is feeding the insanity ,,God I wish we had guts enough to turn it all off and go sit still.
What we are missing is already here in each of us,,and we do not know ourselves. We believe what we see and hear,,we believe our own distorted versions of life and experience. None of that aspect of our self is real or alive. All that lives is in each moment and passes with each moment,,,living for the past has been an experience of life on Earth and as of this Shift in frequency will no longer be a way of LIFE in this world but rather a path to death, the Death of the old Dream. We are Eternal..if we can re-connect to our centers then we might live as though we had the faith of the eternal , with Respect and compassion and awareness..all moving, living , breathing from the light of our center.
We are addicted to talking about nothing, believing that our beliefs are true and real,,Beliefs are not true, have never been and will never be,,real is un touchable,,and is what we are, real is completely knowable and unexpressable all at the same time,,Eternal is real...Light is real..this moment is real..none of the stories of the world are real..stop giving your faith to stories.
Tragedy is going to become the way of the world ..and all we have to know about that is that it is us doing to ourselves..How much pain and redundant insanity will it take before we let all of our demands of reality go?
Be Still and Know that I am God...We have been told!!!